Needed

Tonight, as I sat twitching at the sound of  a shrill voice calling, " Mommy!" and a four month old screaming I thought.....I just want to not be needed. 

The selfishness and foolishness of this thought didn't hit me till later. I was holding the aforementioned  four month old while he slept, and I stared jealously wishing I could be sleeping. Then i realized sleep will one day come, "Mommy" will eventually no longer be screamed, and I will get my wish. I will no longer be needed.